The Air They Breath

I was always in the thinking mode of how, what, and who I needed to change.  It never occurred to me that there was much wrong with me until the fatal day in Buenos Aries, Argentina,  in the house of Jacquie Mitchell that I picked up this book called, "Co-Dependent No More".  What in the world in this I said to myself.  Co-dependent.  We were waiting to to go somewhere so I began to flip pages when I  saw this notation... solving peoples problems.  I thought, ahh that is what I like to do. Then moving back toward the front of the book I noticed several pages with lists of codependent characteristics. Hummm ... never had heard of that. Decided to take a closer look and in thumbing through this book a sensation grabbed my heart and made me almost want to run to the bathroom and throw up.  I knew without a doubt that I had been brought all the way to Buenos Aires, Argentina  to finally  have my my eyes opened to  some serious character flaws.
It has taken lots and lots of reading, praying, and soul searching to come to terms of my serious control issues of people, places, and things.  I think I may have reached a point where I am doing better and then then the Creator places another bridge to cross in my journey.  PEOPLE.... ah, there are some who's very air they breath irritate me.  I cannot change anyone else but me so I have to begin again to surrender all of this breathing trouble once again to my Creator. It is certainly a blessing that I cannot twinkle my nose and vanish the few humans that irritate me so much... and you know what, I don't even cross paths with them that often.  Go figure.  I am one sick gal.    That is why I try to stick so close to Jesus and my Al-Anon.  I am sure it has to do with the idea that I think that I know everything.
I am laughing for certain because I don't know shit about nothin except me.

Later.

My Anniversary!

October the 23rd, one day gone, four years since I drove out of Mexico.  I cannot believe that these 4 years have raced and oozed by since I left Mexico.  Here I am still living and doing in Childress, Texas.   And I have only lived in 2 houses in the last four years. We bought a house in February of this year.  It is an older home with good bones.  We are blessed.  I am in my second year of teaching art classes to some really great and talented kids.  I have learned how to resurface counter tops with Granicrete and I am pretty good at it.  I don't have a dog and that is a good thing. 
  
I continue to paint for me. I have had several adult students but right now I just have one and she is awesome. 

There is a bible study group that meets in my studio which began in another place and for some  reason God saw fit to move it to Moore Art Studio/Gallery.  What a blessing it is and has been for many gals.  Women are hungry for  a safe place to come and share their hearts and have hands laid on them in powerful prayer.  They come and go as the Spirit moves them.  I use to be concerned that my life in ministry would be over since I was not an "official missionary"... bah humbug.  God is using me and all of the messy and blessed experiences in my life to make a difference in this small corner of Texas. 
I still clean houses.  It is a good and honorable way to live.
I miss Mexico and my heart is troubled due to all of the violence that is so common.  My heart is troubled by the addiction that is so rampant in this country.  Addiction and Drug Lords are in cahoots...their foul smelly hands contaminate anything they come in contact with.  The steal lives 
harm children, destroy families. Did you know that 98% of all crimes are alcohol or drug related.  I got that bit of information from someone who knows.  Did you know that the narcos pray to the Saint of Death so they can sell more drugs and create more addicts in the US.  It is a vicious circle.  I pray to God asking him to bring an end to this death chain.. Oh enough of that.

My kids are great. My grandkids are even better.  Amberlee and Brian are still in Lubbock ,Texas.  Andrew and Jessica live in San Antonio, Texas. Amanda and Jacob live two block from me.