The Air They Breath

I was always in the thinking mode of how, what, and who I needed to change.  It never occurred to me that there was much wrong with me until the fatal day in Buenos Aries, Argentina,  in the house of Jacquie Mitchell that I picked up this book called, "Co-Dependent No More".  What in the world in this I said to myself.  Co-dependent.  We were waiting to to go somewhere so I began to flip pages when I  saw this notation... solving peoples problems.  I thought, ahh that is what I like to do. Then moving back toward the front of the book I noticed several pages with lists of codependent characteristics. Hummm ... never had heard of that. Decided to take a closer look and in thumbing through this book a sensation grabbed my heart and made me almost want to run to the bathroom and throw up.  I knew without a doubt that I had been brought all the way to Buenos Aires, Argentina  to finally  have my my eyes opened to  some serious character flaws.
It has taken lots and lots of reading, praying, and soul searching to come to terms of my serious control issues of people, places, and things.  I think I may have reached a point where I am doing better and then then the Creator places another bridge to cross in my journey.  PEOPLE.... ah, there are some who's very air they breath irritate me.  I cannot change anyone else but me so I have to begin again to surrender all of this breathing trouble once again to my Creator. It is certainly a blessing that I cannot twinkle my nose and vanish the few humans that irritate me so much... and you know what, I don't even cross paths with them that often.  Go figure.  I am one sick gal.    That is why I try to stick so close to Jesus and my Al-Anon.  I am sure it has to do with the idea that I think that I know everything.
I am laughing for certain because I don't know shit about nothin except me.

Later.